My dreams are so real with you in them

I dreamed that I had Jack back, we were laying on my bed I was laying on top of him, just touching his face and I could really feel his features. It looked just like him in every aspect, it was him in every way I was shocked. I knew it was a dream, but I kept telling him how real it felt, how much I wanted it to be real.

Things at work still suck. Now people know and things are just really screwed up now. John and I are still not speaking and him and Rynell are hanging out all the time now. She even goes to the bar upstairs with him after work. That is my hang out I can't go there and relax if she is there with him. She doesn't even drink. And I was beginning to forget why I was even mad at him. I am just disrespeted and I feel more and mroe like not talking to him is not getting my point acrossed. Brandon asked me the other day if he could stay the night "in my bed" because he let me stay at his place and i slept in his bed, it was only fair. i couldn't believe he said that at work. FINE ask to stay at my place its cool cuz we're friends. but don't fucking bring up who has slept in my bed etc etc. its no one elses business. As if everyone knowing I slept with John isn't bad enough, now everyone thinks I slept with Brandon too. And guess who dropped Brandon off at my place that night cuz he supposedly couldn't get back to the north shore that night. John. That is fucking lovely. This just gets better and better every god damned day.

but wait! no there is more! I went kayaking two days ago with my friend brandon, not the cook the one who brough me home from hooters the other night. he is way fun, older and not attractive, but very nice. trustable. I have poor judgement in people, but a lot of the hooters girls are close friends with him, so maybe their judgement is better than mine. Most of the time I just sat back and drank, and he did most of the paddling. It was fun though, we talked a lot and laughed and it was nice to have a nice day off for a change. then back to hooters hell yesterday.

It was Brandond's birthday and all the hooters people were upstairs at bikini's but Greg my bartender wasn't working so I just went up checked it out and left. Rynell was downstairs waiting for John to get off work and I wasn't gonna wait up for that mess. Fuck it. Brandon kitchen boy aparently took Leanne home with him the night after he stayed at my place trying desperately to hook up with me. ARE YOU KIDDING ME. i am surrounded by a bunch of dogs. and they wear these cute little puppy disguises. fuckers. this is so rediculous I don't know if I can be friends with any of these kitchen boys, the cons are beginning to seriously outweigh the pros.

ONly one month left then its off on a vacation with kristie. then when i come back john will be gone for good he is leaving on some adventure around the world. and brandon might as well be gone from hooters. this is good news.