There are 6 billion people on this planet

There are 6.6 BILLION PEOPLE in the world and i'm NOT going to waste another minute being hurt by you, or you, or you!!!

Brad came over the other night to get laid, but we didnt and he was mad, but he called the next night cuz he thought something might have changed. well it didn't and he just gets meaner and meaner. I can't even believe I ever allowed someone to say those kinds of things to me. we got into an argument and i kicked him out then i made him come back because I felt bad for kicking him out. he stayed the night but wouldnt cuddle with me or anything. Then he had to leave in the morning early cuz he didn't want to waste his day laying around with me doing nothing. its only worth it if hes laying around getting some i guess. well fuck it. I sat there more than a little stunned after he left. I sat for a couple minutes in my bed, just thinking how I let people treat me like this. I remembered a "piece of flair" button (haha i know, dork!) on facebook, that said there are 6 billion people on this planet and i only want you. and I thought wow, there are 6.6 BILLION people on this planet and I'm going to invite over the one asshole who thinks he can emotionally and verbally abuse me and then get laid? OH FUCK NO.

THERE ARE 6.6 BILLION PEOPLE ON THIS PLANET THAT MEANS I DON'T HAVE TO SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN FUCKING AMAZING UNTIL I HAVE EXTINGUISHED MY 6.6 BILLION RESOURCES. (less if you want to exclude women, but I"m not going to)

if you can't change your fate change your attitude.
thats a good one too.
maybe you can't change fate, but who knows. you can always change the direction of life and hope for a brighter fate, right?
i don't so much believe in fate, but luck. good and bad. i think everything that happens to us happens depending on the situation, and it is influenced by good or bad luck. And it has nothing to do with what you deserve. If you do good things to get good karma, that makes you a good person. it doesn't mean good things will happen to you, or that bad things will happen to people who have done bad things to you. you are now, by your own standards, a good person. and that is dependant on your standards, and varies by person.

Anyways. I am counting down the days to Maine, and Costa Rica. I am excited to see mum and dad, and steve will be around too. crazy, the people who wind up sticking it out. I would never in a million years seen steve being the one friend I could count on seeing when I come back to Maine. Jun-hyeok, the guy I was seeing in Seoul will be in New York some time, I wish so much he could come to Hawaii. He was a sweet guy. He sent me an email, it was cute.

"hey this is me

i normally never check my e mail

i luckily found this few days ago

so how have you been

i'm in canada right now

toronto

i'll might be going to ny next month for few weeks

then i'm going back to korea to finish my univ

i miss you always

one day we can be together drinking wine or having something really nice

could be korea or state or any

until then ' take care

leave your ph number i'll call you
my mobile is 010 7287 7607

i'm using the skype""




mmm how cool would it be if i met up with him while he was in NY? mm

tomorrow is my day off, i'll prolly pick up thursday. I hope hope hope this week is better htan last week because it was so dead last week. I made 450 working 38 hours. I was hoping to make something like.... 600 last week, and that didn't exactly happen. so this week I"m keeping my fingers crossed for a busy week. Not letting any of the drama with the kitchen boys interfere. So tomorrow I think I am going kayaking again, this time to a diff place called chinaman's hat. I was supposed to go to taco tuesday with sarah but taco tuesday isnt that fun, there are too many people I could run into, but hopefully i'll be able to make ti to a movie with her still. Her friend jordan is coming too. such a sweetie, but another whore like all the guys I know.

gotta go get ready for work tonight. just woke up like an hour and a half ago i'm such a lazy ass