costa rica was awesome!

Besides the flights and the lay overs and all that jazz rah rah rah the rest of the trip was spectacular! When I flew into san jose I was immedietly surrounded by a familiar feeling of complete unfamiliarity, such was the feeling when I flew into korea for the first time and was surrounded by a mass of people who I am incapable of communicating with for the most part. I was worried when Icouldn't make my phone call out, I was ever more flustered when the only information my phone would give me as to why I could not call out was all in spanish. Tmobile had once again let me down. Luckily I found kristy waiting for me just outside the airport. Her phone didn't pick up any bars in San Jose as well, so it was rocky there for the both of us on arrival. We then took a taxi to the other side of san jose to the smaller jet port taht would fly us to our beach destinatin, Manuel antonio! I was tired and stinky and couldn't wait to arrive! The flight to the beach was short, 15 -20 tedious minutes with serious drops and swoops and dangerous banks that had us clinging to our seats and praying, well on kristy's part, I mostly just hung on for dear life and screamed everytime our little tiny plane hit any serious turbulance.



Our hotel, the mono Azul, the blue monkey was pretty impressive. It was just as I had expected Costa rica to look, and every building was all open and airy, with a hint of the third world country that we were in, which I liked a lot. It would seem pointless to visit a third world country, ( and they called themselves that, I didn't say it) and have it look just like the hilton hawaiian, everything felt more real, rustic, and authentic there. Quepos and Manuel antonio are joining towns split by a small winding road littered with little restaurants and grocery stores. We stayed right in the middle, closer to Quepos side than Manuel antonio.



First day there we jsut settled in, we had to switch rooms in the morning cuz of some conflict in scheduling. it was a nice room with one big bed. the hotel had wireless internet and 3 pools, and it was only 50 a night, for that I would consider it quite luxerious! Our first day tehre we saw the monkeys! there was a small blue line going acrossed the road so the monkeys can cross safely. We heard them first, then a whole slew of them bounding across the rope 2 or 3 at a time, playing and screeching. One little one almost fell off and all the observers gasp! then he stablized himself and continued across. I got some of this on video, unfortunately my camera was lost somewhere between the laguardia ariport and the queens motor inn... :(tragic indeed.



Our second day we left early for the Manue antonio National Park. That was fabulous! It was a pretty good hike, then we took another extra trail away from the main beaches to hit up a couple smaller ones. It was the most gorgeous views, the water was green and blue in the most amazing shades. there were wild iguana littered all over the beaches and all through the park. I almost stumbled right into a huge one who just refused to move! Kristie saw it and was yelling to me, but i just kept walking right to the last second when I saw the second one next to him, and yelped and jumped. then did i see the one that almost ate me, twice the size as his partner, it was a close call- i was close enough to have reached down and touched it one of the people near us told me. no shit... don't wanna do that again! The main beaches were breath taking as well, and there were white faced monkeys crossing our paths, they are so playful and tame I was shocked! The little monkeys by our hotel were smaller called Titi monkeys. A raccoon came up and stole a bag of cookies from a woman while she was sitting right there holding on to them! so I guess the monkeys aren't the only things that are tame in the area! We saw sloths and kristie saw a snake in the national park too. I got pictures of the sloths, but the camera thing again.. you know.



We just walked around Manuel Antonio for a while after we were done in the park, which is really only one main road and people set up their kiosks and sell "original" my ass costa rican trinkets. most of the things were things you could buy in the "international marketplace" in hawaii. so it took us a while to come upwith some real authentic (as far as i know, at least it wasnt hawaiian loking) gifts for everyone.



I think the next day we were pretty tired, I had a headache that lasted almost 3 days, I think it was something to do with the pina coladas i had the first night I was there, so no more dirnking for me after that first night. We went zip lining a few days after arriving, the front desk set that up for us and a tour bus picked us up. it was so much fun. we didn't see any wildlife really but we were also at the end of the line so anything would have been scared away by the time we got there. the point was we went ziplineing through a rainforest! attached by only pully things I dont really get. the guides were nice, especially one, stephen who was a cutie! he hit on us we flirted back, but i'm guessing he was married or something, way too cute to be just single hanging out in a rainforest. anyways i have someone, so we decided to not go out after he invited us to meet up out on the town. the ziplining tour had ziplining, doi, repelling, which was scary especially after they told me the link was going to be really hot and watch out it doesnt burn your skin off when we strap it back on to your belt line, oh ge thanks for the heads up! i was so scared! it was relaly hot i caught my hand on it once right after we repelled, ouch!! the tarzan swing was scary too, that i was just afraid the person who was supposed to catch me on the otherside would miss and i'd be stuck dangling between two trees all day. irrational i know. it was a loooooong ass way down though and that was a little scary too, even though i'm not afraid of heights I don't think i would enjoy falling like 10 stories down.



We had a couple days of rest and relaxation and some shopping in Manuel Antonio. Our last adventure was the white water rafting. We chose the easiest one, but turns out we didnt' get the easiest one, we got the hardest one, and they looked pretty calm but it was all the work I could do to keep myself in that raft. We had a lot of fun, and our guide was nice. he had a tattoo on his leg of a sea horse too! same leg about the same size as mine too! crazy!! the river was fun, we had a water war with the other raft but they had more people.

our last day we spent sight seeing in san jose the capital and went to a zoo like biopark thing, not many animals but we had fun anyways. we shopped at the market center and then flew out at 330 the next morning. so much fun so many memories, def gotta do it again sometime

Family - far from the familiar

I left HI, and an amazing new guy I think I will possibly dedicate a good chunk of this upcoming year to, to go to Maine. It seemed like an obligatory return, I haven't been since xmas and I sort of stupidly figured that they would miss me or something... but I also had to scatter Gram's ashes and might as well throw an eye apt in there as well. So it seemed like an important visit, like I should really go home by now. I was excited too. I talked to mom sometimes and dad on the phone too and epople seemed excited that I was coming home. I planned on seeing kristin steve and a couple people fromhome, maybe pete an old friend, or joey- but nothing really panned out. I did get to spend a lot of quality time with kristin, my friend from elementary school.

On my arrival mom and dad picked me up from that airport. As loving and charming as they are together, it was akward that they both were there to get me. We went to the Evans' grandparents house since we were in the area and dad wants us to be close to his parents like we were with mom's parents while his are in their gradual descent from this life. Grandpa was in the hospital with a recently discovered complete kidney failur, and Gram the always loving and caring wife would have gotten MAD/ JEALOUS had she known we had snuck out to see him for an hour or so. He was actually in very high spirits, I think the time in the hospital away from my Gram E has done him good. We took him for a walk, he was doing very well and planned on returning home on monday (which didn't happen) and the nurses taking care of him were very good looking,so he at least was in a good place and state of mind.

After the short and a little strange visit with him and Gram E we drove home, dropped off the luggage and went out to eat. We went to a steak house I had never been to and had fun sometimes, joked around and jsut acted like a nice family for a couple hours. I realize how awful it would have been now to have been an only child... even though living with tracy could be trying at times, at least I wasn't stuck wtih my disfunctional family all by myself! Not much to do at home, I hung out with mom and such.

I went to bangor on sunday with Kristin to shop at the mall for vicky's secret and bath and body works things because hawaii has none of that stuff. the mall closed at 6 and we got there at 530 so we ran around and i got a strapless bra last minute before vickys closed, then we took goofy pics to entertain ourselves. It was a lot of fun talking to kristin about our lives and what we had missed in eachothers. Very insightful and its good that we are still friends even though all that we've been through in and out of eachothers lives. So that was cool.

The next night krissy came over too and we watched movies with her sister nikki and talked and had fun. It was a good trip, seeing mom and dad and kristin and aunt karen, when I look back on it it realy wasn't so bad. Its just that when I'm there I can't stand being there. I can't stand how dad treats mom and how he just acts over all. I don't like it and it drives me crazy keeping my mouth shut. It always bothered me more than it did tracy that they fought and that mom just clammed up and haha smile ok i'm ok we're just alll right! then her actions and deep deep depression shows that obviously this little show that nothing dad does effects her- really does. she has just thrown her hands up and declared this lifestyle as normal! Accepted that the next 20 years of her life will be miserable and just decided to go through the motions every day and be completey sad and discontent with her life. It is heart breaking and frustrating, and annoying! THAT IS WHY I HATE COMING HOME sorry its not that i dont wanna see you mum but this life affects me too. Dad was completely selfish in his ways and would not do anything to change his schedule or routine around to correspond with my schedule, the 4 fucking days i would be there, he couldnt couldn't- wouldnt! change the channel or the volume of a very disgusting murder show he was watching while I was at the table trying to eat, even though i asked him to change it! he said well don't watch it or don't listen. He has my room turned into his room, and the living room and kitchen are at his disposal at all times, it wasnt like there was any where for me to go! it was impossible and i just kept pretending that it was all okay and that i wasn't dissapointed in how my family was acting. This is not someplace I would ever take eric. andits got nothing to do with him. its my family and my own humiliation of them. sometimes I wonder if i'm making it up, how they are and if myabe i shold just give them a chance. then i realize that no, i'm not making it up or exaggerating the flaws. its bad and it really is embaressing.

so i finally shipped out to costa rica, after spending another lovely day with my aunt and mom and karen's camp. she was being really bitchy too, mom excused her because its the heat that gets to her, she's let herselff go and gained a lot of weight, so she has the right to treat everyone like shit who is just trying to be freindly on their 4 fucking day vacation home. JUST PRETEND TO LIKE ME ITS ONLY 4 FUCKING DAYS. she came around later and agreed to go kayaking with me, we had fun.

Mom could see that I was upset by how this trip was going, and came down to the boat I was in to talk to me.

"I don't know how tracy can stay here. I can't believe how hard it is for me to be here for just 4 days"
I know how fyou feel she said
"How can you live like this? how can you just give up and accept life like this for the next 20 years?"
thats how it is- she said

NO IT ISNT no it really isnt/
people move. people demand change. people get out of bad situations. it is possible.
come to hawaii. leave dad. if just for a little while, you dont need him to rely on any more. he holds nothign over you now, and gram is gone, you can get out. nothing is holding you in maine anymore and you don't have to just accept a miserable life here. you don't have to and i can tell you now, this is going to be my last trip to maine, i can't stand this. if you want to seeme you can come to hawaii. in fact you can move to hawaii. it is possible to move iwth nothing and start over. it is possible and people do it all the time.
"I've never thought about that"
"it's definitely food for thought"

it was hope that was different in mom after that moment. she is still overbaring at times, but if she comes to HI its mylife and i live it the way i want to live it andshe will know that if she does move out there is so she is starting over. i will help her take care of things and we will work something out. i want to help her but i am also scared what this is going to do to my family, to tracy, to our current fundings, to well... everything i know in maine. everything. i don tknow if i'm ready to take care of mom- but i know she needs options and she needs to get out of a bad situation. so that is the drama in maine right now. tracy doesnt know about it, actually no one really does except mom me and my friend sarah who I told. I sort of told eric a little bit, but he has never even seen his family argue, he would never understand this kind of situation.

then i shipped out to costa rica with a 9 freakin hour lay over in laguardia airport, buti survived that and arrived and met up with kristie, so i'm here, at the motel now and the adventures here are amazing and wonderful and exciting and lovely and for another brighter cheerier post.

I don't wonder with you

My guy is so amazing. I have known him for such a short time, and I really do trust him completely. That is a lot to say, and he is a salesman, so he is a smooth talker and that does scare me a lot sometimes. I don't want to get emotionally invested and then have him turn out to be one of those guys who says what ever he wants to get a girl attached so he can have his way and then walk away unbruised. That was how Brad was, and seeing the same symptoms in Chris I was sure to keep a good solid obvious distance from him and let him know his romance was lost on me, I was immune to his bullshit. That was a good call, butthis seems different, and I have met the family, and we did wait to have sex until I knew him better. I know a week isn't very long, but it was for us, we were inseperable for the first 6 days we met and it felt like I had known him forever. He likes to be around the girl he loves every day, and that is good news. A self proclaimed hopeless romantic, and falls fast. I guess I do to, this all sort of came out of no where. I'm ready to be in a secure and uncomplicated relationship, and this could be it. There is not much to worry about and we're just happy together, no fights, nothing to fight about. So far so very very good. We talked on the phone for 3 hours straight last night.

Warren saw the pictures on my facebook or myspace not sure which, but he texted me like 2 minutes after I had posted them. He asked who is the new guy in all your pics? I didn't know what to call us quite yet because we aren't officially together. I guess it's because we are trying to slow things down but Eric says it's because he wants me to decide if I really want to be committed right now. I am pretty sure I don't want to be with anyone else right now, and I'm ready for a committment, but I am waiting until I get back to give him that answer. So I just told warren its a new fling.... he Texted me later saying so I guess that leaves us back to nothing then? I didn't know what to say, if I should just cut allties with him right here, and just say yes I guess so. Or no it isn't like that. But both is just wrong. I can't just push warren out of my life because he is a friend and doesn't deserve that with out some kind of explination. But I don't want to lead him on and keep him on a back burner becuase I want to be committed and fully committed when I see Eric again. So I didn't write back for a while, then I decided it was best to be reasonable and not fight. I wrote this, "What were we before then? We weren't dating although it was a possibility, we weren't. We were friends though and I hold that in much higher regard than nothing. I hope we can remain friends and if you want to talk about this please call me." It was the right thing to say and it was exactly how I feel with out letting myself get carried away one way or the other. He texted me back and I got it this morning, "you're right I do cherish our friendship too. I think it just caught me by surprise cuz i still have feelings for you. I'm sorry i over reacted i will try to give... " didn't get the rest of that text, might get it later? Anyways its a good way to end it without being mean or selfish, and then if eric turns out to be another brad I will still have a good friend in warren, something that is really important to me.


today is kind of overcast and cloudy, but wasn't planning on doing much anyways, might try and get ahold of steve, or something. I avoided seans calls because I don't even want to go there, I knw I would be good if I saw him but I don't even want to put myself in that situation because I really reallly don't want to fuck things up with eric.

me and kristin got to hang out a little bit yesterday and today we will get together too hopefully and hit camp tomorrow. maybe it will be sunny. :)she's the only friend I've seen here so far, and i'm cool with that. I really should call steve though and try and meet up with him sometime today cuz he was really sweet about trying to be available to make plans while i'm up in maine.

this week if i can remember it all correctly......

I know I haven't updated in a while. My computer was acting really funny, it would not turn on, then it would turn on if Iheld the power switch until it was off and hit the power switch again. I htought it would last until I got home and dad could fix it, but a couple days later it completely shit the bed. not turning on the screen at all but the lights on the keyboard would light up. Weird. I just left it for a couple days.

Work as been amazing, I worked like 5 days last week and made bank because the RIMPAC navy guys were in HI. Its the navy from all over the world, well 5 different countries and they all have been out to sea for so long they would have eaten dog shit served by black sheep. So they were the happiest customers at hooters I think I've ever seen. Lots of stunt men shots, lots of big tips and good times. That helped a lot with this trip to costa rica coming up and all. On the 4th I got a table that didn't strike me as very different at the time, they were quiet and kept to themselves but at the end the nicer of the two came up and handed me the credit card slip as an excuse to say bye. Usually its dismissable cuz its just a hooters customer but maybe it was cuz he wasn't the typical hooters customer, or the way he looked right at my face and not the general chest vicinity that was different. He was cute too, really adorable. On the 5th Kasia said one of my tables came back later to see if I was still here, I was hoping it was that table and not some freak or something. Thats nice, I thought. Then towards the end of the night Kasia runs over, LORI your guy is here, the one from last night! the one that came back later last night looking for you! -Oh really? cool. It was nice that all the hooters girls were drooling over him too, and kasia says oh hes here to see lori. what? LORI? WHY LORI? haha thanks for the support girls.

I was really timid at first, I knew he came back to talk to me but i was like, he is older, and what would I talk to him about.... I'm too nervous to go talk to him. But I stopped by he was sitting at the bar and we talked for a second, I still had tables to tend to. I was touched he came back in the night before and then the next day too. After my tables all left and I was just cleaning the tables we talked a little bit, and I offered to meet him upstairs at the bar above hooters, bikini cantina. I was supposed to go out to varsity with Sarah and Jordan that night, right after work. But I figured it was still early I had time to go see him at bikini's and if I liked him I'd invite him to varsity with us. But then Kat had an issue, her crazy army fiance found old letters from a guy and got pissed and drunk, then trashed her apartment. So right after work Kat calls me, Lori come quick I need your help I got most of it together but I don't htink I can get it all cleaned up by myself. I was in a serious dilemma. a) go see sarah like I had planned. b) go to kats and help fix the apartment. c) Go to bikinis and meet up with a guy I had just met. The advice I got was go ahead with a but call b and forget c.

Of course I don't do this. I call a and tell her the issue with kat and she understands. I call b and tell her I"m on my way, then meet c and let him know I'm not standing him up, but that Kat needs me for tonight. he was understanding and he said he was going to Fashions, which is a club almost directly acrossed the street from my apartment. I told him if I left kat's early enough I'd stop by and see him. His friend works there on that night so he was just hanging out there.

Kat's apartment wasn't as bad as I had imagined. I thought he would have broken shit, but mostly he was just upset and knew he would come around that is why he threw everything in the trash completely preserved. He knew Kat would rush around and clean up and fix the things that weren't broken. she had most of it cleaned up pretty good, and had unpacked his duffel while he was passed out on the bathroom floor. We cleaned up pretty fast and it looked just fine after a couple hours. Kat was a mess though, she had been crying so hard. He had come into work while we were busy and brought that drama to her, it was completely unnecessary!! So she had had a really bad night and most of what I did was just convince her that this was not the end of the world, he was going to come aroudn and forgive her, that is why the pictures are not broken or torn, they are just taken off the walls, and he didn't leave like he threatened to. She was such a mess though, I feel for her a lot. We did get everything all together, and I headed home on my moped. When I got back to Waikiki and changed outta the hooters uniform I called the earlier Hooters customer, his name is Eric.

He was still at fashions so I change into a little more appropriate outfit. It was 3 when I got there, and the club closed at 4 on Saturday. It was fun, we talked for the hour I was their, neither of us are very good at dancing until drunk, and he wasn't drinking and I didn't use my fake id to get a 21 band. After the club closed he offered to walk me back to my place. It was sweet and I felt really comfortable with him. Then maybe half an hour later he called when he got home and we talked until 6 am!! I wasn't working until sunday morning and he had the day off, so we made plans to go to the beach.

The beach we went to was closed because of lack of parking spaces, then the waterpark was too full so we decided against that too. we settled on the pool at the aiea rec center by his house. I got super sunburned especially on my chest, and work afterwards was sooo difficult and embaressing. I made almost no money and was extremely uncomfortable the whole time. He brought me into work and then picked me up afterwards and gave me a ride home on his bike. It was not scary but it was not comfortable because the rider seat is so much higher than the drivers seat I kept falling forward into his seat. It was nice of him to give me a ride home but I still didn't invite him in. The next day I gave my shift away to Leeann, thank god soemone wanted it, because my sunburn was so bad! I slept in and aloed myself silly. Later when Eric got outta work we decided to meet up for some food for supper and just to chill until then. I drove my moped to the ala moana mall where we were gonna meet.

Heres my shitty story about how I bascially totaled my moped. I wanted to park close to the mall not have to drive around in circles until I found a close moped parking thingy. I decided on the bank of hawaii because it was the closest parking lot. the moped parking was right in front, but there was no ramp to the poles to lock a moped to. Tehre was a moped up there on the edge though, I figured it must be possible. I hit the curb going fast enough to jump the curve but I was only half on the moped just incase it didn't go and I didn't want to get flipped over it. Good thinking right? But the moped jumped the curve and took off straight at the wall and the more I tried to hold it back the moreI pressed on the gas to pull it back and the faster it went, straight ino the cement wall behind the moped rack. and smash! my whole front end is fucked up rpetty bad. I bruised the inside of my right thigh with the handle bar, it looks pretty homely. It was soo really really painful, and funny and frustrating at the same time. I called Eric and met upwith him in the mall and told him what happened. so embaressing!! But he was so sweet and sympathetic and even offered to help fix it.

The bruise is the worst. I left the moped in the bank of hawaii parking lot over night. We went out to eat at a korean restaurant I had been dying to go to since I got to the island. It was really good, and we just never run out of things to talk about. He has so amny stories and has done so much with his life already. He was a navy seal and then graduate college with a major in chemestry, and now he's a business manager at a used car dealership. He is a smooth talker and really charming but swears, (sometimes) he is a terrible liar and that is why he doesn't sell the cars anymore, he is just in charge of the guys who sell the cars. Oh and he has a son. did I mention he's a little bit older? Hes 29. 30 on Sep 15. But it doesn't feel like that at all and it is reassuring becausehe kind of has his shit together, (kind of) and isn't scared to death of being committed to someone like umm all the other guys I know. That was nice, it comforted me somehow.

After supper we looked for headlight parts but we didn't know at the time that wasn't the only thing wrong with it. I didn't wanna drive it home with out a headlight so I left it and we went to his house. I met the fam. I know, kinda fast right? Well it wasnt like they just embraced me either. They were a little cold, his parents and brothers. I really don't think they like that I am so much younger than him. His friends surely don't approve, they are bringing up all the time that I am not over 21 and that is his golden rule.

On tuesday I worked at night, so we left, he supposed to be at work at 9 but called in and explained he was going to be late. He left me at my moped but after I started driving it I realized something was much more worse than my headlight being broken. I drove it to the dealership he works at and parked it next to his car, he said he would look at it when he gets the time. I just chilled with him at his work for most of the morning. That was the day I found out he had a son. He didn't exactly tell me, it slipped out while he was talking to one of his coworkers. Oh REALLY? YOU HAVE A SON? wow it was pretty shocking. But it got over it, I mean it isnt like he lied about it he really just didn't know how to bring it up. Who doesnt' have those kinds of secrets. No big.


I left the moped there and took the bus to work. He showed up later after work and a late meeting with some bankers. Leeann him and I went to bikini's for a couple drinks while she waited for her ride. He's so cute and I feel totally comfortable with him by now. Its like we are basically together so it felt just, ... right? it did, its crazy. He brought me home and I offered to let him stay. I slept that night really well. I was going to do all my packing on wednesday because I thought I was flying home on thrusday but actually I didn't leave until friday at 3. So we woke up I did some laundry then we took a nap until 6 pm!! Did soem more laundry and went out to eat at mac 24-7 at around 11. We stayed up most of that night obviously, since we didn't even wake up until 6 that evening. We decided to go sunrise hunting on wednesday morning. Sunrise was at 5:50. We left a little late and almost missed it. It was so sooooo beautiful. It was fun, I didn't expect him to be down for something like that, just kinda so go with the flow. I love that!

Besides that wednesday was a little draining. His friend billy flew in from San Diego at 1. We went to his place to meet him, he was pretty rude. I guess I passed the looks part but he was not impressed with me over all because I think he just wanted Eric to hang out with him the whole time he is in HI. Its fine with me I don't want to intrude but it wasn't my call. E chose to hang otu with me over billy cuz i was leaving friday. Then he had to go pick up a part for his motercycle. The guy that sold him that was pretty rude to me too. How cool is that. I like going out and geting hated on. But I do like hangingout with Eric and he was really supportive. Except we weren't sure what we are to eachother. He introduced me to billy as his friend, but his friend with hickies all over her neck? why not just tell him you found me on the corner of kuhio and lewers or what not? It is okay cuz I introduce him to people as my friend too. But he's my friend. My new shiney accessory. I tell him that too, we joke about it. But seriously, things are good and so good taht it seems like this can't even be real. How did this even happen, how did these circumstances fall this way? Its really good luck. But its pretty balanced at least for me by crashing my moped, breaking my laptop, getting sunburned, and losing sarah to the mainland for the rest of the summer. He is an amazing guy though. I am fucking surprised how much I like this guy already. Andhes so good looking I love looking at him and hugging him.

He stayed the night again, and on friday brought me to the airport. It was a long ass plane ride but I made it alive adn I"m still really running on fumes. I have Eric's laptop, SO NICE SO SO SO SO NICE, he let me take the laptop and offered to take care of mine. It turns out... it's a recalled computer so its a common problem and if you sendit in they will fix it for free. :) he'sdealing with that for me, and with my moped too. That takes um, all the stress off my sholders, I can't believe what luck I have. At least the most amazing guy comes along when all this shit is falling apart. Things definitely couldn't have turned out a lot worse.

Mom and dad met me at the airport, we went to visit Gram and Gramp evans. Gramp is in the hospital, he has kidney failur but he is in good spirits well rested, and should be sent home on monday. Gram is still losing her mind, its a sad car crash in slow motion. Nothing anyone can do to change the coarse of their fates. Uncle Tom from Colorado was there, I never get to see him anymore! That was cool. We drove home and I had to try on all the vicky's secret clothes I got and had sent to maine. It was like xmas in JULY! from me! i liked them all so cute! worth the $$. We went out to eat, me mom and dad to a steak house in rockland. It was really good. And I heard from my E and got some new pics of him, so cute to send me pics. I love it. :) <- he makes me do that a lot. I only have about 3 days in maine, not the 5 I thought I was going to have. Tomorrow a bbq with crit, maybe see steve and kristin and jimmy. prob not all those people, maybe just one but thats okay. We are also spreading grams ashes tomrrow too. That is really the most important part of coming home. It sucked that tracy wasn't home cuz i really watned someone who would be as ecstatic as I am about eric. mom listens and acts like ohh cool but doesnt care that much, and dad doesnt care at all flat out doesnt listen. but i'm still happy. I need to go into town and get some dunkin donuts coffee and print some pics. I leave on tuesday night for costa rica for a week. I'm so ready for that!

All in all things are good, and all that is bad is being taken care of, and I met the most amazing guy ever and that rocks my hooters scrunch socks wooo!

umm i think that is all. well. if you made it this far, kudos!